at least...

it was a nice trip. 8th to 10th july was trip i'll always remember...

it seems as if things are going so fast. suddenly i'm already in the 5th week of the new semester. yea.. things are going on pretty fast. very fast indeed. i need to slow down. but with the pace things are going on, i doubt i'll have a chance. not until the midterm break.

it's amazing how people can influence my own life. the most important people who influenced me is of course my family. somehow or other, they play a part in shaping my character today, if not less. then come friends. of course the people i hung out with during primary and secondary school are the closest people to me. influence me? they did. if not so, i won't be who i am today. an "anti-social" (the wrongly used term) anyway, they did influence me. for good or bad, i don't know. and i don't mind neither. it's already history. then there is this few people who really influenced me emotionally. i think i'm no longer important to them. i think i'm just a hi bye friend to them. but those few people really did shape my emotions.

so what about myself? does anyone even care about the character i have? or everyone is just looking for a friend for themselves? i mean it literally. finding a friend for themselves is finding a friend, altering him, so that the friend can be who he wants him to be. most of the time people are like that. they'll try to change things they don't like to suit them. that's not a bad thing to do. but it's really degrading the person being "changed or altered" it's like a master and a slave. not friends. you see, people have their own personalities. friendship is a two way chemistry. we cant force someone to change just to suit ourselves. acceptance. that's one thing people don't have. everyone have their own weaknesses and strength. that makes everyone unique. so if you influence your circle of friends to change their personality, does that mean that everyone is the same? no uniqueness? equal? that won't happen. acceptance.

i'm not saying that everyone is altering others. just that things i've seen told me so. i hope i'm wrong. but i know there's someone who will appreciate me, at least :)